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TALLLLLLLLY!

THIS IS ALL TALLY'S FAULT!

SHE DID THIS!

Not only did she steal my boyfriend, but she had to betray the whole Smoke also???

Why did I trust her? She was a spy and it's all her fault that Specials are here to capture us! How come Croy didn't believe me? He was the first one to think that Tally didn't only come to the smoke to see me. That she was hiding something... How did Tally change his mind?  Maybe the same way she did with David!! And I was covering Tally saying that she was my good friend, that she would never do something to hurt me... What was I thinking??!?  A Special even said to Tally that Dr.Cable wanted to see her immediately. I knew it! 

Plus last night I didn't saw David and Tally. She told me that they were only talking... YEAH RIGHT! How can I trust her now?  She is lying for sure... She only wanted David for herself before this all ends. She wanted to finish her little game with all of us....

Well miss Tally Youngblood, this is not over! 

  

Dear Journal,

Today I brought Tally to the trading post so she could trade her SpagBol for a new sleeping bag. 

                             

After I talked to her about the thing she wanted to say to me in the library. It was about the necklace she was wearing. I already had discovered her secret. I knew that she was upset because she broke the promise she had made to me. She told someone about the smoke. The same someone who gave her the necklace. And this exactly explains why Tally was all nervous with me. She wants to be here with me, but she also wants to go back home with him. With her special someone. I'm sure she gave my directions to her new lover. So if one day he would like to come see Tally in the Smoke he could. But this is okay!!

She doesn't need anymore to act weird around me because I did the same thing!! At first, I wasn't supposed to tell anyone that I was coming to the Smoke, but I told Tally. Tally because she is my friend and I wanted her to come with me. She did come!  But I had made a promise to David that I wouldn't tell about the smoke and that it would be a secret. But I broke my promise... David wasn't sure if he could really trust Tally. It's true also that I had known Tally for not so long. This is why when Tally arrived to the Smoke, everyone was nervous. David is also acting weird around me...I know that I screwed everything up but when they'll know more about Tally I'm sure they will love her...

However, I'm really happy that Shay came and I hope that they others will like her. 

She's here!

Dear Journal,

TALLY IS HERE!

I knew I did the right decision by not giving up. I knew she was going to come and she came!  I taught I had messed everything up, waiting so long to tell her about my plan of running away. Plus, I was so stupid, getting into a fight with her instead of just telling her what I was going to do. But know that she’s here, I’m just so happy to see her!

 I presented her to David, the guy I talked to her that was living in the Smoke. Tally also saw my friends that had escaped before me. I explained her also about the system that she needed to keep her food to trade it for something else.

I took her down to the library to show her the Boss. We looked also many magazines together where I think Tally realized that beauty here and beauty in New Pretty Town is completely different! Here everybody is beautiful. You are beautiful just the way you are but where we were before, to be beautiful they were saying that we needed an operation! Ah…I am so happy that Tally decided to come here. But there’s something strange about Tally. Today I saw her, she was wearing a necklace. A pretty necklace for sure but who gave it to her?  Why is she wearing this?  She never wears this kind of stuff?  But Tally didn’t want to tell me nothing and few minutes later my boss came so we change subject but this story of necklace is not over!

I miss Tally...

Dear Journal,

It has been a long time since I wrote to you because I am having so much fun with my friends in the Smoke! It’s been ten days now that I’m here and I’m so happy! I have been working on a big project since. David discovered a new railroad track about a year ago and it didn’t run anywhere useful so he draw a plan to plunder it for metal and build more hoverpaths in and around the valley. So this is my big project on what I’m working right now. I really like but I miss Tally…A lot…

I hope I will see her soon, but I know that maybe she’ll never decide to come to the Smoke. I wrote her a little note with codes that she will understand hopefully. So if she changes her mind, she will be able to reach the Smoke with my indications.

Please journal, please tell me I will see her again… I miss her so much. I know I did the right decision to come to the Smoke but I hope that Tally will do the right choice too…

Look Journal, this is a picture of her...

Good-bye

Dear Journal,


Today I went to see Tally to end up our little squabble. She asked me if we could do something crazy tonight and I was so happy because I had a plan; to escape. There were six days left before the operation. I didn't want to do the operation but to fun away and go where David lives. The Smoke is a place where you can go wherever you want, where nobody's in charge and where everybody is ugly. What a great place! It is so better than New Pretty Town. I was supposed to run away with my older friends four month ago but I didn't. I did not go because I chickened out. But now that I found Tally it's perfect! We can escape together and I can show her the real life. We will have so much fun! 

The problem is that Tally doesn’t want to go with me. She really wants the operation to finally get pretty like she says and go in New Pretty Town. She don't understand that, like I said to her today, «we don't have to look like everyone else and act like them. We can grow up any way we want." We do not need any of these operations to feel beautiful. We are all beautiful people! It is ridiculous how the government and the rules of a society can manipulate and control and entire population.

This is why I'm going away. I do not believe all these things they say to us. I will go reach David and maybe will see my older friends. Plus, knowing that they didn't come back only tells me that I need to go to. I hope Tally will come see me...and even join me... I let her a note with some codes that she will understand. If she wants to join, she will know where to find me.

New friend!

Dear Journal,


I go often to New Pretty Town because I love expeditions and to sneak out. Tonight I met another Ugly who was also sneaking in New Pretty Town to see her friend. Her name is Tally. We both have the same birthday date so we will turn pretty together I guess... I taught her how to ride a hoverboard. She didn’t knew how! She fell a lot but with a little of practice she began very good. 

Tally showed me her morphos. She was all happy and having fun doing it and showing me the results. The problem is that I never made a morph and I do not want to create one. Sure I did some while I was a littlie, but now, I just didn't want to do this anymore. Everyone, including Tally, is so obsessed with beauty and appearance and all that stuff but it's very because of the government control. I do not believe that were all Ugly. I think that we are pretty just the way we are but we just don’t realize it because everyone tells us that we are ugly all the time and that we only will be pretty at the age of sixteen, after the operation. 

I brought Tally to the Rusty Ruins with me. I had plenty of stuff to show her! She did the roller coaster and I wanted her to meet David but he wasn't there. Maybe next time but I really want her to meet him before the Operation day. Maybe he can change her mind about all of this...

Here's a picture of the Rusty Ruins :